A Promise kept... forever

Thoughtful I was, depressed I became, 

From the state of extreme sadness, I turned numb. 

Even my guess work had given up on me, 

When she was lead into the theatre for an operation.

I closed my eyes, and let the seconds pass by. 

It ticked and ticked, and the time dawdled through.

Every second made me shiver and mindlessly tremble. 

Tears started dripping slowly, as my depression grew. 

Engrossed I was completely, 

Unaware of what was happening around, 

Longing to see them both, coming out together, 

Craving to talk to her and hear my baby’s first sound. 

Finally the glory is bestowed, the rays have crept in, 

The voice of an angel signs the beginning of a new thrill.

It kick starts the smashing smiles, flashing on everyone present,

When that amazing sight of that extremely gorgeous face is unveiled.

Behind her was towed, my beautiful lady,

With all smiles, as she had promised me, 

In all excitement she said ‘Sweetheart! I am back…. Just for you.’ 

I burst into tears, & whispered ‘Babes… Thanks a lot…. I Love You’

Is that you?

Here I seem to be away... away from you, and from the whole world I know
Nothing seems to match - neither the time, nor our feelings, and about anything I try to show
I am out here... all alone in this race now
But every time I wake up... I tend to shout - Sweetheart, is that you?

Missing is what I initially thought it was,
But you are my necessity... I need you, more than just miss you
You complete me, not just through my thoughts but just - 'everything'
I know life is tough, have to take care, but without you even that's not there

My heart doesn't beat without your name,
My mind doesn't begin thinking without you in the beginning
Started to feel you in every corner i cross now
Just want to be back, don’t know when I would reach that tomorrow.

Holding that smile all this while, afraid of the mocking world out there,
Have been holding my feelings, my tears, and my sorrow
Just want to take you in my arms and let that drops flow,
Want to love you and keep loving you, a lot more than even before

These days it's so tough to even close my eyes,
You seem to have haunted my sleep too...
Don't want to end my life, as I want to live it with you.
Darling... you there? Are you listening to - - what I just said to you...??

Novel Acquaintances

Every relationship narrates a tale of its own,
Every new friend marks the beginning of a new story
Would that transform into a special relation – that’s unknown
This increases my belief that, every relation has an exceptional reason to carry

My story had a smashing beginning,
Hoped it would reach the highest heights,
Building trusts, feelings, friendship & understandings
Avoiding the sour phases of controversies, grudges & fights

Frequent conversations brought us closer & closer
With the words we exchanged, her new identity was painted in my mind
This is the time where crushes & infatuations are bound to happen
Most of them fade out, but few transform to love of a different kind

Have surpassed the age where I would be infatuated or have a crush with anyone,
All new introductions tend to rebel against me these days.
More fingers point at my status than me now,
Accusing me guilty of lies, and always bound to betray.

These days friendship starts with preconceived conditions,
The relation which had no boundaries, now has restrictions,
Staying aloof seems like the best choice to me now,
As every new relation ends up in some kind of a new friction

Delusionary Departure

Wandering over the thoughts I started receiving,
The good times we had, and the best days we spent together
It made me smile and wanted it to last long,
Till this painful thought pinched me to bother.

Among all the sweet thoughts, was this one which haunted me,
Haunted me till the dawn and the days thereafter,
Didn’t leave me till the time I started to cry,
Wept, regretted and my feeling started to shatter

The thought which disturbed me so much,
Was that you would leave me one day or give me a divorce,
It left chills and vibes all over my body, that
I would have to end my love, when I actually started to want more.

I Love you Sweetheart! And don’t want to end this relationship,
Want to see you and my love, grow old together
Having no end to it, and only unbounded love,
No hatred or any other bad feelings, but just the relationship that would matter.

The Eternal Depression

Sad are the feelings which pop in my heart,
Sad are the days which go by
So sad and gloomy on the situation I’m in,
That there is no person or a thing I can rely

Been bombarded with different thoughts,
Forced to hear and do things which are unethical,
No one understands my feelings these days
Have begun to curse the world and started betraying my life

The world has become the worst place to live in,
Don’t know where the destiny is planning to take me along.
Can’t leave or even think of discouraging the bonding so far acquired
Nor want to live it up and neither sulk in it lifelong.

Passing through the stage of dismay,
Where everything feels so artificial,
Family, friends, relations and the other such associations
Have started to seem as if, they were completely unreal.

I am so sad and distressed in this feeling of love and the game of my heart,
Neither am I able to survive nor commit suicide.
I am so obsessed with this state of depression,

That would die one day of this mental homicide.

Take care, keep smiling…

There is this poetry written by my friend, Amir - Tryin to be Poets.. This one’s written in a conversatory style, which altogether is a new concept, at least for me. The best part about this poetry is that, there are two poets who exchange conversations. If you are able to feel what they say, surely you would feel the pain undergone.

It’s indeed a phenomenon craft of poetry. In fact it was soooo touching that it made me cry... especially the last line - 'life perhaps, IS NOT A FAIRY TALE'

However, I was not also tempted to write something to sooth the heated conversations a bit, it goes this way –

Pragnya this one's for you -

Friendship, crush, infatuation, love and all those artificial relationships,
are all fake if they happen before the weddings goodship.
Believe in yourself, believe in god,
you will never be left alone, never will you face people who are odd.

Initially you’ll just see your shadow, the only one who walks besides you.
Later you’ll see a crowd, and your cheeks would be left with no dew.
Smile… Smile as if you never did before.
Rejoice the feeling of life, and let the sadness walk out of the door.

You will have another person, the Mr. Right of your life.
With whom you will be yourself, and finally become his wife.
After which your life would be full of joy & laughter
and both of you would live happily ever after.

Take care, keep smiling…

Missing You

With you in my heart,
Accompanied with a strong desire,
I left you all alone,
For certain goals of mine to acquire.

While at the place,
Felt all alone,
No other friend to meet,
And no one for me to groan.

That refreshing smiles of yours,
And the amazing company to miss,
I am left all alone,
With you in my mind as a bliss.

Now when you are away,
I find you in my dreams,
And this has made me realize that,
My love has finally reached its extremes.

I wanted to be with you,
But no mode to get in touch with,
You are my love and true in its existence,
To whom I’m known and nothing hid.

And now when I have realized,
It’s too late, since you are away.
For me departing is a pain as darkness,
And meeting you is as finding sunrays.

Sweetheart, there is one thing I always wanted to say but couldn’t,
It’s that I love you - more than your imagination, and always will,
Never will I leave you alone,
Nor let our love suffer or get itself grilled.

Tears

This was also published in my college magazine (Sardar)

With the water so precious,
running down as a stream.
It’s the sign of sorrow,
when it touches its extremes.

It’s got its purity so vast,
which shines and glitters on its own.
When the pearls in form of water,
and the pain undergone is shown.

This is so precious,
that no ornament tops it.
It’s a stream of moisture,
when the joy and happiness quit.

It’s a friend, who accompanies,
always when you are in need.
It helps you to get support of,
and forget the painful past deed.

It is present in all,
and discloses itself, when given a call.
They are the ‘tears’ from the eyes,
nourished as dew & drop by drop they fall.

They live for a while
and then disappear.
They give you a kind of solace,
when troubled by sorrow or fear.

It’s like a helping hand forwarded,
when suffering in sorrow.
They help you to overcome it,
and to build a better tomorrow.

Need You, Want You, & Very Badly Missing You!!

As I open my eyes, I see the sun,
I see the rain dew, but I don’t see you.
I am so addicted to hug you after I wake up,
That, now I can’t believe - I need to stay without you.

You’ve been the fragrance of my bland life.
You’ve been there when I need you or even when I didn’t,
Now how can I keep going on, when you’ve left me all alone,
All I can think of now is how badly I’m missing you.

I know you’ll be back here someday,
But I want to date you today.
Sadly, you’re not here with me,
when I actually need you, want you & very badly want to spend time with you.

Having fun never crossed my mind, when all I could do was miss you.
I tried to forget, you were even gone, but the thoughts of you have always wandered around.
The better half of me, I’m currently missing, has gone away,
It’s the glimpses of our past, the lovely times, in my mind they surround.

I have begun my quest to find my love again,
That’s you my love, my one and only adorable sweetheart.
Can’t live anymore without you,
Waiting for the day when eternity, would not be able to split us apart.

Love you, and very baddddllllly missing you!

When You’ve Left Me...

You were the one, who loved me,
Purely from your heart and a true mind.
You were the one, who made me believe,
That love is everything but not blind.

You helped me grow,
Like a flower grows along with its fragrance.
You showed me the way to live life,
And made me feel how important was my presence.

I behaved like a kid,
You helped me mature.
You were the only one in whose hands,
I believed my life was assured.

Now when you have left me,
I feel very depressed and lonely.
Now without you near me,
My life is nothing and is no more lively.

I loved you so much,
With all my love, affection and friendship.
But still you left me alone,
And within no time broke the relationship.

Now that you’ve gone,
I feel broken and all alone.
So my love try returning, cause
I can’t live without you and may die without anyone left, for me to moan.

My Hearts Broken….. Again.

On a lovely Afternoon, with the falling leaves,
Cold breezes and too many smiling faces,
Amidst them all, appeared my love, to my surprise,
To confess – ‘SHE DOESN’T NEED ME ANYMORE & END THE RELATION’.

Our relation was never this weak, since the time it was bonded,
Time immemorial it was actually the strongest relation consisting of tremendous, pure and natural love.
It never let us erupt or be in tears ever,
It just gave us lots of giggles, smirks, laughter & smiles.

They were the best days of my life,
It always made me feel important, precious & special.
But as every lovely day has a dark night awaiting,
Even my best days had their worst times following.

The words so strong, with the hatred so deep,
With an intention to QUIT, & the mind set to deceive.
She was too firm in her thoughts & knew what to do,
Finally, she bestowed me the feeling, which I never expected to receive.

She termed me a barrier to her happiness,
And termed our love to be a biggest mistake,
It was at this moment my heart actually split,
And it was then when I realized – My Heart’s broken….. Again.

After a very long time, I was granted a new love,
A person who really loved me- Truly, Madly & Deeply,
On whom I could rely my Trusts & all my Beliefs,
Who was so incredible, memorable & unbiased in all extents, I could ever believe.

And now I walk… walk all alone, but yes from Now on –
Never will I ever trust a girl so much again,
Never gonna fall in love,
I’ve realized – that the world is full of Mockerer’s,
Who cannot actually love, but excel in mockery.